It's About Time

After spending most of the summer in St Andrews with my first part-time job, term has now recommenced, and I am no longer a semi-bejantine, thus the name change of my blog to Tertian. It's strange thinking that now things begin to count. The work I do now actually matters. Of course, it mattered before. But this time it's being accredited towards my final degree status.

I recently watched a film called About Time. It was your typical love story with a twist. Coming from the director of Love Actually, it was bound to be romantic, but it incorporated within its sickly sweet story the concept of time travel. I won't spoil it, but at the end, the film has some philosophical messages about not taking things for granted, having no regrets, and making the most of the moments whilst you live within them rather than looking back on them with bittersweet wonder.

Whilst my yearning for romantic premises and Hollywood love is long gone, I do wonder at times when and where you can find someone so beautifully matched to you that you could deem them to be your soulmate. I talked to a friend recently and she said that her boyfriend is first and foremost her ultimate best friend. They laugh, they share which results in a love far beyond the typical love at first sight mush that films portray. Their love is real - it may not be perfect, but it's natural and refreshing to see how two simple people, even with all their flaws and intricacies can be so intimately enwoven into their own story of love.

It's not like me to be sardonic about love, for it's something very dear to my heart, but a lot of the time I do doubt whether true love is actually a thing. Despite this,  I do wholeheartedly believe that there's somebody out there for everyone even though most of the time it doesn't seem all that likely.

This post has no particular purpose. It's the ramblings of my mind at the present moment. Love isn't something easy, despite what Hollywood would have us believe. It takes blood, sweat and tears. Quite literally at times. I'm really willing to find this. At a time in my life when my self-discovery, learning and career are supposed to be taking off and jetting off into the hue of a sun-glazed horizon, there's nothing more that my heart yearns for but to find that someone who I can live my whole life hoping to be forever embellished in, like a jewel set in stone. I know that it would take work, and many years to understand, know, and love this person in their entirety, but I really wish that I find them. There's nothing more fulfilling in my mind to know yourself and know another, and to know that you fully love and treasure each other so wholly.

Single life can be lonely at times, yet when I get involved with people I often change my mind and think there's a certain wonder in being single too. Being single enables you to find out about yourself, in order to develop your interests and personality so that when you finally find someone, you can share so much more with that person. Putting together a jigsaw is a wonderful feat, yet it's that moment when you finally find the last piece that it makes the whole endurance worth the effort.